What’s up fam! I know it has been a minute since I posted something new, something fresh, but I’m back – full-time. A few things happened in life and though I anticipated them, and somewhat wanted them to happen, I was still shell-shocked and terrified because now, I have to live it. I cannot half-step or half-commit. I’m all in. Fight or flight, I have not run from anything since I was a child…or have I?
In reality, I have been running from destiny for years. I cannot tell you how many times someone has asked me, “If you were not afraid how would your life be different? or How would your life be different if you did not have fear?” I have honestly not ever allowed myself to answer that question honestly. I mean, what could I say that’s not an excuse? What could I possibly say that did not rival, my current moment. Nothing.
Reality is, it took years for me to get to a point where I valued me enough to say, I will not allow anyone or anything else to pimp me for change again. I have held countless positions in which I know unequivocally my presence, performance, and tenacity improved everything around me. I am a tenacious problem solver, thinker, and producer. I intimidate people without trying to, and for a long time I felt that was a flaw and began to conform or be nicer. At this juncture of my life I realize the flaw was thinking there was something wrong with me, the flaw was in comparing myself to and competing with folks that I was designed to be nothing like.
The issue with looking for purpose is that we look to existing examples and forget that we are unique and created to do something extraordinary in our own vein. I’m done fitting in, I’m done living quietly, I’m done not sharing my journey. I am unapologetically me, a force to be reckoned with, beautifully and wonderfully made to walk the path before me. I encourage you to drop fear one thought at a time, it is said that we WALK by faith before you can walk you crawl. Timing will never be perfect, circumstances will never be optimal, but you were created for such a time as this. Walk it out, running is not required.
Live by faith…Walk in faith.